Well I knew these sets of challenges would keep me from twiddling my thumbs - but really? Did I have to start out so ambitious? I'm no psychologist, but I really think this is my problem, and, my undoing. I am a HUGE dreamer, planner and perfectionist. I take on too much. I think there are some non-existent expectations of me (which are entirely my own!) and often are bitterly disappointed if I fall short. Sometimes my behaviours and grandeous ideas motivate others. Often they frustrate people, and leave some feeling slightly inadequate.
My Mum is often alongside me in my endeavours, encouraging me. My husband loves what I do but doesn't like seeing me stressed over my own ambitious undertakings, when I could easily scale things back a notch. My kids really don't know what to make of the world as yet, so don't necessarily notice the small detail.
Whilst I probably don't admit it often, I am very much like my mother in my creative pursuits, standards, and ideas. No doubt because together with my father, they have been the biggest influeneces in my life. So, I can't blame my parents for the way I am, but I say...perhaps I have some 'learned' behaviours and traits? Hehe. To know me is definitely to know my family, too! My husband is extremely practical, realistic and supportive of me also. In fact, he sets his own standards extremely high, and I'll talk more about this soon.
Hmmm, so I'm often the 'big-thinker' or strategist, I like the planning and preparation, the
thrill of starting out on something new and exciting. That's probably
where I've really fallen short with the blog, as I pressed 'pause'
before things really got started. Rest assured, life has definitely NOT
been on pause, and we have shared so many exciting experiences together
as a family over the last five months - it's been fabulous. We have
shared some really sad times too, but that, my friends is
the essence of life. Taking the good with the bad.
best get on with my story - and yes, the challenges are still in the
background, but I may just chose a different path for my 'outlet' from
now on... :-)